Quote from "Stepping Heavenward" by Mrs. E. Prentiss

"She says I shall now have one mouth more to fill and two feet the more to shoe, more disturbed nights, more laborious days, and less leisure or visiting, reading, music and drawing.

Well! This is one side of the story, to be sure, but I look at the other.

Here is a sweet, fragrant mouth to kiss; here are two more feet to make music with their pattering about my nursery. Here is a soul to train for God; and the body in which dwells is worthy of all it will cost, since it is the abode of a kingly tenant. I may see less of friends, but I have gained one dearer than them all, to whom, while I minister in Christ's name, I make a willing sacrifice of what little leisure for my own recreation my other dear darlings had left me. Yes, my precious baby, you are welcome to her time, her strength, her health, her tenderest cares, to her lifelong prayers! Oh, how rich I am, how truly, wondrously blest!"

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Another Chemo Day...and Just Give Me Jesus

It was another day at chemo.   Thankfully my sweet daughter drove me today while she studied and I did my Bible studies, read, and got to know some more people.   One of the sweetest ladies I have met remembered me from 3 months ago when I gave her my card and she sat across from me today.  I found out today she is a pediatrician.   She gave me her card today so we can keep in touch.   She has a great story.   She was diagnosed with bone cancer in 1997 and was given 2-4 years.   Praise God with the advances in cancer research and treatment she is in remission and doing well.   She comes in for I believe preventive measures every 3 months.  I love when she comes in, because she opens the blind wide to let the sunshine in.   I love wide open sunny places.

The other couple I met was a man who was diagnosed with colon cancer in April.   He has two ostomies!   Unfortunately, he is not dealing very well with it.   I tried to be an encouragement to he and his wife, but he was one tough cookie :D.   I will be praying for him.

Overall it was a good day.  I've not been sick yet, and for that I am thankful.

Since going to the "Just Give Me Jesus" conference with Anne Graham Lotz I haven't been able to get rid of the song Just Give Me Jesus sung by Fernando Ortega out of my mind.   I think the Lord had truly prepared me for a personal revival this year.   Between the cancer, certain Bible studies, and the Henry Blackaby book "Fresh Encounter" I've been reading, my heart was really prepared for a fresh Word last Saturday.   Thanking the Lord that He continues to reach out to us, doesn't give up on us, and gives us a hunger for Him and His Word.   I WAS that wicked wretch that He set free in "Amazing Grace".   It's my heart that wanders in "Come thou Fount of every Blessing".   It's the cry of my heart in all circumstances, like Mary looking for His body, to "Just Give Me Jesus!"   Of course, it's my longing for my husband and children, family and friends to be passionately in love with Him all their lives too.   That they will say all their lives "waking or sleeping, Thy presence my Light!" as in "Be Thou My Vision".  Let us shine His light wherever we go, in all circumstances, during every season, for all our lives.   He is worthy!!

Monday, September 17, 2012

Old German Hymn



What God hath done, it is well done
His will is always just,
Whatever He will do to me,
In Him I'll ever place my trust.

from "Bonhoeffer, Pastor, Martyr, Prophet, Spy."   Dietrich's mother 
played this at his older brother's funeral during WWI.  

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Eye for an Eye and other Ramblings from the homefront

I have only two treatments left.   I am beyond excited.   I finally asked the doctor the "then what" question.    First I will have to get my surgery so I will no longer have an iliostomy.   That, my friends, is a date I am ecstatic about.   Then he said for three years I will have to be checked every 3 months on my blood levels and every 6 months scans.  If nothing shows up, I'll be considered cancer free.   I didn't ask if not, because my mind cannot even fathom more chemo treatments at this time.  I'm remaining hopeful that I am healed and am camping there until further notice.

We have been reading through "Fresh Encounters" by Henry Blackaby in a Women's small group on Wednesday nights, and boy has it been good.   We are only on Chapter 5, but the level of conviction concerning my prayer life is huge.  I cannot recommend this book enough for anyone who is ready for a revival in their spiritual life. It's good stuff!

Last week while playing wiffle ball at the park, my strong 17 year old soon hit the ball into my 13 year old daughter's eye (she was pitching!).   She cried no less than an hour and off and on for hours she was in so much pain.  She didn't get a full blown black eye but I think that was because of the icing we did.  She did get a light black eye and her eye was blood red for days.   Two days ago, the kiddos were playing basketball out front and she accidentally poked the same son in the eye and scratched it.   It was also quite nasty!   He had to wear an eye patch yesterday.  I joked with them that we don't believe in an eye for an eye, because then the whole world would be blind.   Seriously though, they didn't heap guilt on each other and forgave each other rather quickly.   After all, they were just accidents.  

Yesterday I slept almost the entire day away.   Meanwhile, the kiddos had  yard sale and made about $30.  They are working on saving money for the Jamaica mission trip that Timothy wants to go on.  Nicholas may too but that depends if he gets picked for an apprenticeship next summer at Polyface Farms.  We will know October 1st.  I did wake up enough to take the yard sale leftovers they loaded into the back of the Suburban to Goodwill.  Then back to sleep.  Then I woke up enough to watch a bit of "The Patriot" and then see the Gators whoop up on Tennessee.    Then I fell back asleep.   Saw the munchkins off to church this morning, the hubby off to work, and am looking at all that needs to be done.  That's the stinky thing about being sickly.   You want to do all the chores that are "shouting" at you to be done, but you just can't move.   The kiddos do a great job keeping up most things, but it's not "mama" done.   So my 2nd load of pears that need to be canned may have to wait a few more days, my latest sewing project will wait, along with all the other little things that need to be done, and that's okay.   (At least that's what I'll keep telling myself so I don't nut up, ha ha.)

Thanks again for all the prayers.   I will continue to preach to myself the good news of Jesus Christ, and have found the Lord to be near, my Provider, my Strength, and my Song.    

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Excellence

There can be no excellence in man, 
but so far as he is influenced by God's law:
without it, the greater his natural powers
and abilities are, 
he is but so much the more
detestable and mischievous.
~John Newton

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