I'll be surprised if my life is the same after cancer as it was before. I've been forced to stop and smell the roses and I have learned to enjoy this much slower pace. I didn't realize how much of the load I've carried over the years until I've allowed others to help carry it with me. For example, my husband does the shopping most of the time now when we run out of things. My eldest daughter has helped out by shopping with children for their needs for me and my eldest son has run other errands for me. The days of no interrupting errands have been successful school days and even chores are getting more back on schedule. What you may not know but before I got the cancer, I was laid off from running a book business for a missionary. That also took me (with different children on different days) 20-30 hours a week away from home. Unfortunately, we've had to do some retraining because we got really lax with the children on chores when I was at my sickest. We accepted half done jobs because we didn't have the energy to follow through. But I will choose to see that as another opportunity to help my children to become better servants of the Lord instead of ONE MORE THING they aren't getting right. I usually see their poor habits as my poor parenting. If I take time to train them correctly, they will learn what is expected. But it takes time...and time is one of our most valuable assets. Sometimes, it's the thing I don't want to give all of, but we have to be willing to sacrifice much for our families in order for them to flourish as well tended plants in a garden.
Lest you think I have it all together, I'll let you in on the nitty gritty of our home. Too many habits got way laid during my sickest months:
- my youngest has to be repotty-trained
- we are working on enforcing bed times again
- working on getting our Classical Conversations memory work back on a daily basis (Mon-Fri)
- they watched too much t.v. and played too many video games which we've finally got back under control
- my little ones went nights without me checking their teeth
- even though I've leaned totally on the Lord, my personal Bible reading has been very hit or miss and we just completed our second week of consistent morning Bible in school.
- the bedrooms have not been mama inspected in so long it will take me probably all of March on the weekends to clean out one room at a time "spring clean" style to get things back in order (including my own!!)
- and we just rediscovered the laundry room floor.
Jonathan Edwards: “Upon time we should set a high value, and be exceeding careful that it be not lost; and we are therefore exhorted to exercise wisdom and circumspection, in order that we may redeem it. And hence it appears, that time is exceedingly precious.”