Spring also reminds me of new life as the bulbs start pushing through in the garden. Pretty flower heads are peeking out everywhere. The jasmine is blooming on the fence and the wind carries it's delicious smell throughout the yard. All these thoughts of new life remind me that for the first time in over 18 years I wasn't pregnant when a baby was 2 year's old and that's kinda sad. I wonder if I'll ever get used to the fact that my baby season is over. Don't get me wrong; I LOVE the grand babies too. As sick as I got and as bad as the deliveries could be, I really love being pregnant. I love new baby stretches. I love nursing and carrying my baby around everywhere. I just love everything about the blessings of children. I love seeing them grow and their personalities develop. I love seeing how God works in their lives. It's the hardest job in the world but I have loved it! As I go through the "attic clothes" to switch out from winter to summer, it's a new thing to get rid of the youngest boy's and girl's clothes. I believe that going through infertility for over 5 years and losing 5 babies has made me appreciate the blessings of life even more. As heavy as my heart is, I'm purposing not to despair but rejoice over the 8 blessings I have and enjoy the season I'm in. My plate is so full with many responsibilities now that I'm far from bored. Praying the season will allow me to spend more time in prayer and in His Word since I'm not pregnant or nursing for the first time in many, many years and that does excite me.
Thank you again Lord for the many, many, many blessings You have given me. Thank You for this new season and may Your Spirit breathe fresh and anew in my family's home just as the sweet smell of jasmine blows. ~Amen